ravelda nominated me for a Roar award. Thanks, Karen!

However, I'm going to be a party pooper about it and not nominate anybody. I'm sorry, but choosing 5 of you to nominate means NOT choosing 195 of you, and there are some days I might be in the mood; today (or should I say lately?) isn't one of them.

I used to keep this LJ just as an easy way to maintain a diary. After all, I'd never been able to keep up with a paper diary. Typing is easy, posting gave me a funny sense of being "accountable" even if hardly anyone was reading. Moreover, I was always bubbling over with the need to babble about my characters, and the LJ gave me this feeling that while no one was probably reading these long-ass boring posts, somebody MIGHT be.

However, that was a different time, when my f'list was a fraction of the size and most of the people on it came from the thriftwhore comm or were old friends of mine.

These days, whether I like it or not, my Livejournal has become a place where professionals might see me and potentially judge me. And you know? Sometimes that's kind of a scary environment to blog in! I miss being able to ramble about my characters for three pages and get 0 comments and not care, but I would feel strange if I did that now. I don't make a huge effort to be entertaining to a broad audience. At this point, that just isn't my style. But I at least try not to embarrass myself.

I have respect for anyone who keeps a regular Livejournal and says what's on their mind under these circumstances, knowing their LJ has become a semi-professional forum. I guess, with my own blog-anxiety, I just can't possibly single anybody out!